I do not know what I am doing anymore.
I love him so much but it seems pointless.
I know he is hiding something, someone….
Things arent the same.
I love you. Hope & pray that’s good enough
Those things I cannot escape
Haunt me everywhere I go.
My heart given to you & only you.
But I feel u about to let to fall.. Let it break…let it shatter..
It to you doesnt matter.
You lie to my face with the kind words of love…
You make love to me but think of someone else…
Its back to crying myself to sleep.
Nightmares of being alone.
Ive only been with you, ive been faithful in every way.
Ive been devoted & true.
But I dont think the same for you
Please just sit down & talk to me. Sit down tell me what is on ur mind. Please tell me what it is that u want.
How do I tell him? how do I just give up on it when its natural for me to want? How am I what I am without it? I feel so stupid & alone.
I know he only wanted to because I wanted too. He doesnt want it he never will but fuuck! Idk anymore.
